It is very unlike me to do 2 consecutive blog posts but I felt that after yesterday I needed to clear a couple of things up. First of all, I made the post quite negative and I did not mean to make it that way, and second, I also didn't do a very good job expressing why the situation was so uncomfortable for me.
I mentioned that a lot of these family blow-outs happen around the table during meal times. I always eat with the family and so I am always present during these fights. Generally Alex will pick a fight with one of his younger siblings and it is often because they are being a "suck-up" to their parents. This usually entails one of them thanking their mom for the meal she prepared and saying that its good. I am not sure how things work here, but for me that is not sucking up at all and its pretty darn normal, and even expected to thank the person who made the meal. This is where the problems start but they only get worse from there and about 5 minutes later, all 5 members of the family are yelling, there is crying and at least one person leaves the table. For me, this is incredibly awkward because I sit there and do not say a single word. It's most definitely not my place to get involved but the whole situation is so uncomfortable. It is selfish of me to think about myself when the rest of the family is clearly so devastated by it, but it truly makes me want to not eat meals with them at all. If I had the money to eat my meals out of the house I most definitely would, but the reality is that its just not possible. I also end up spending a lot of time in the house instead of in my studio because I don't have internet out there, and that means no skype, no facebook and no blogging!!
Anyways, I also think that my issues are also a result of just plain living with new people. I am sure that after a good 2 week holiday spent with family, friends, eggnog, gingerbread and turkey I will be ready to face them again! I am going to finish the post with a few pictures now so I hope you enjoy.
xo
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